Laine and Lawton,
Kiddos. Let me me start by saying that you are both amazing. I mean it. You AMAZE me. And, almost as amazing, somehow you both manage to have the entirety of my heart. It's like each time I gave birth to a baby, my body also generated a new heart so that each of you could have your very own. And so now I'm getting a third new heart, a third amazing little person. And I could not be more excited to share this with you both. Laine, you have been a rock star of a big sister from the day we brought Lawton home. You are helpful and sweet and as patient as your 3 year old self can be. You are certain New Baby is a girl and already want to buy her things and draw her pictures and set aside certain toys for her. It makes my heart soar. Lawton, seeing you as a big brother will be such a hoot. You are so full of life and joy and energy and love and I know you will be amazing at sharing that with your new sibling. I think I have held onto you being a "baby" for longer than I did with your sister and so it is odd for me to think of you as being old enough to be a big brother... but with your birthday less than a month away it is kind of hard to ignore anymore. I am so proud of the boy you are becoming.
I find so much joy in the love you two have for one another. Lawton, you ask for Laine as soon as I come to get you out of your crib. Laine, when I took you on a special girl morning and Lawton was at MMO you asked and talked about him almost the whole time. You are both ecstatic to be going to school together starting in a few weeks. You teach, help, encourage and amuse each other constantly. I feel so much hope when I see you two hug spontaneously, or when I hear you cracking up in your room together, or see you share a toy without prompting. One of my most fervent prayers as a parent is that you maintain and foster and nurture that relationship into adulthood. My sisters are like touchstones in my life, constant sources of pride and laughter and comfort. I want that for you both, with each other and with your sibling to be. I love how you love each other.
Don't get me wrong, kiddos, you are not perfect children any more than I am a perfect mother. You challenge me and stress me out and test my patience, and I know you get frustrated with me and each other. We have bad days, we have hard times, we have time outs, we raise our voices. Being your mom is a hard and exhausting job. But man oh man, so rewarding and a tremendous source of pride. It is important that you know that you are treasured, valued, appreciated, and so so very loved... no matter what.
I'm thankful to be your mommy, and grateful that New Baby will have both of you for siblings.